I am so so nervous right now. Tomorrow we are sending in our info to pre-qualify for a home loan. Since we are still in our lease and we don't have a house picked out it is not that big of a deal, but I am just scared that they will say that we only qualify for something like 100k. I am hoping for about 200k because that would keep our mortgage payment right where our rent payment is and we can buy a good size house for that. Even 150K wouldn't be too bad. We shall see how we measure up by Monday at the latest. Wish us luck!

Ugh! I really don’t want to work today. I don’t know what is making today different from every other day, but I am just not in the mood. I hate this job anyway, but Mondays usually go really fast. I can’t finish school fast enough. Not that there are any interior design jobs. I just can’t wait until the new business units come. I am sure that they will be better then this. I can’t wait for my super long vacation too. 11 days off is good for me. 5 days in California is not bad either. I hope it comes super fast but the time goes super slow, cuz that always happens. At least in the mean time I have the 22nd of June and the 3rd of July off.
I am sad today because I remembered that Jaiden’s birthday is Saturday. I am sure that they are doing something because he is turning 5, but I’m sure we won’t be invited. *frown* I miss watching cartoons with him! I can’t believe he is so old. Let’s not talk about it before I start crying.
We just may buy a house before the end of the year. We need to see how much we can get approved for. Jayson can take money from his 401K that we can use for our down payment. It will be nice to get the $8000 tax credit. I just hope that the amount doesn’t go up after we buy a house. We’ll see, but I’m getting excited.

A lot has been going on. I am just going to put it in blocks as I think about it.

-We are going to buy a house next year (assuming Jayson proposes) We have been looking a lot of weekends, but haven’t really found any new builds that we like except in QC and we just don’t want to move that far. We went to Sam and Moniques this weekend, and though we saw the model of their house, I liked it a lot more seeing real people living there. I wonder if the other houses are the same. We need a room that is big enough for the projector and a backyard that is big enough for a pool, even though we won’t have one right away. We would like to have a 2.5-3 car garage so that we can fit the motorcycle and have some tools and build some stuff. We would like an RV gate for the future, but no new homes have that. We can have a 3 bedroom, but since we plan on being in the same place a while I would like a 4 bedroom for when we have kids. We’ll see how it goes. We still have 9 months.

-We are not going to WI anymore. My cousins fiancé called off the wedding. We were still going to go, but I got a huge bill from the IRS. I still have to call, but I need to save money. Jessica and Josh are going to come out here and we are going to go to California and 6 flags. I am so excited to have 11 days off! I need it! I am excited to go to CA too. I haven’t been in awhile and my sister has never been.

-Pancreatitis is gone. I was doing really good at first with eating right and working out. I lost 15 pounds, but now I think I gained 5 back. I have to get going again. I want to look good when we have parties and when we go to the beach.

-I passed my super hard class with a B! I just wanted a C for my prereq. But a better grade is good too. I am not going to do summer school to save money and I am going to probably do 3 classes the fall semester.

-My mom’s surgery went well. She hasn’t really been in any pain. She has been too active so she has to wear her boot for another week. I don’t know how active you can be laying around the house. She has to do it again in August when she gets back from WI.

-I am switching business units in hopefully about 1 month and a half. I cannot stand Pratt Whitney. I just hope it comes when it is supposed to because I cannot stand this anymore! Jayson is applying for a project manager position. One of the guys he does interviews with is doing the interview so hopefully he will have an advantage. It comes with a hefty raise so that would be nice. We can have more money to get a house and have a wedding. We’ll see.

This is how I hear about my great grandma dying:

Sorry to hear about Grandpa Stofflets Mom passing away. I just happened to go on the Beaver Dam newspaper website today and seen it.

http://www.wiscnews.com/bdc/obituaries/445257

They are not having anything for her. They are meeting at a bar and then going to the cemetery later this month. She had cancer for awhile and she recently started refusing treatment and then she broke her hip. She was in a coma for a while and then she was moved to a retirement home. No one even called to tell me she wasn't doing good.

I got my blood work back yesterday and what do you know it said that I have pancreatitis! My aunts friend had pancreatitis and was in the hospital for a week. To think I was at work and the doctor did give me pain meds when I should have been in the hospital! Good thing it’s getting better. I would have been furious if I was in more pain and she did nothing and just said that hopefully I got better quick and gave me prilosec. Good thing they didn’t keep me in the hospital because I don’t really have the money to pay for it, but I tell you, I would have loved to had food, fluids, and drugs through IV cuz it hurt so bad to get either through my mouth. I hope this is a one time thing because that was the worst pain of my life. My back pain was not as bad compared to that. I can’t see contractions being much worse. The rest I’m sure hurts a lot worse, but I am pretty good with pain and I was rolling around and vocally crying out in pain. If I never have this again I will die a happy woman. I am just hoping that it is acute and not on going.

So last week I went to urgent care and as usual they gave me some drugs and told me to go to my doctor. At least they gave me a referral for physical therapy. My doctor (actually the PA) only gave me the same drugs, even after I said they didn't work. She at least traded the Flexeral for Soma and that helped, but even after I told her the vicodin wasn't working she didn't give me anything else.
On Saturday we planned to go the the Renaissance Festival with Jayson's friend Chris and his wife. I woke up at 8 and my upper abdomen was hurting. I thought it was my GERD so I took some Pepdcid. After that didn't help I took Zantac. That didn't help so I just took my vicodin and soma for my back. At about 3 I felt really sick and my stomach was really hurting me. We went home and I went to sleep. My stomach started to hurt really bad. At 9 we decided to go to the hospital. I was put on an IV for fluids and pain killers. I was there until after 2 AM. They said I have pancreatitis and gave me pain killers and meds for nausea. I went to the doctor today (the PA again) and she gave me Prilosec. She asked if I drank and said that she didn't know why they diagnosed it as that. She had me go and get more blood work. All I know is if I run out of meds and the Prilosec does work (which it won't) I am going to blow my top! I have no clue why she thinks it's acid. I never had much problems with acid before and she did ask me anything to come to that conclusion. I have HMO now so I can't go to another doctor either. I am so mad. I switched insurance to go specifically to my old doctor and now they are closing the office and when I do go there I see her physician's assistant. We will see what happens. Pray for me because I am in excruciating pain! I can't even eat! I hate my life right now.

I am posting this from my phone. I came home from school last night and my back hurt a little. I put a heating pad on it and that didn't help so I went to bed. I woke up when Jayson came to bed and I can't move. The pain is excruciating! I can't fall back asleep so I decided to write about it. I have to call in in a few and then in two and a half hours I will be going to urgent care. Poor Jayson has gotten no sleep. The dogs already needed to go out and jack won't just go to sleep. This is not what I need right now. We got an e-mail yesterday that they are going to be laying off 11600 people from UTC. I can't even imagine being laid off. I just pray to God that I am not one of them.
Speaking of God, my brother text me on Saturday and said he wanted to go to church with me. I couldn't cuz I was busy, but we are going to go next weekend. I am going to the renaissance festival on sat. With Jayson's friend and his wife. I just hope I still can. Mt mom and her friends are going too. I will know a lot of people there.

So Vegas came and went as I knew it would. We had a lot of fun. We talked about going more often. Next time we should go with some friends. It's always more fun with more people. Next time I will also look up the free shows and we will have to go to a show. We mainly just gambled and walked the strip a little. We stayed at the Planet Hollywood and from what we could tell it was the best hotel. It has fun night life and it had a large casino area. I mainly stayed even. On Saturday night I was up $100 but then lost it all. The next day I won $40 at the table and $80 on a penny machine. I spent it quickly though.

On Saturday we took Jack to his second class. There was a new dog that was an American Bulldog in class and now our dog is not the worst. He actually did very well in the class and on the walk before. He is still doing well. He is getting better with his comands. He is still too crazy though. We also took Cody to the dog park for the first time and he did really well also. He was on a leash on the water side and he got in a couple fights. On the other side he did really well and made a lot of friends. He got a lot of exersice running around. I hope to go this week end again. This time I would like to bring Jack. I want to see if he will go in the water and run off some of his energy.

I finished something early for the first time in my whole life. I finished my paper on Notre Dame today and then found out that it's not due until next week. If I knew that I wouldn't have done the paper so much the two days I have been sick. At least I have it done and I can focus on my English paper that is due next week.

We all have a weakness
But some of ours are easy to identify.
Look me in the eye
And ask for forgiveness;
We'll make a pact to never speak that word again
Yes you are my friend.
We all have something that digs at us
At least we dig each other
So when weakness turns my ego up
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday

If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me
Sing this song
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone

We all have a sickness
That cleverly attaches and multiplies
No matter how we try
We all have someone that digs at us
At least we dig each other
So when sickness turns my ego up
I know you'll act as a clever medicine

If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me
Sing this song
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone

Have I mentioned how much I can’t wait to go on vacation? It is so busy at work I just need a break! There will be a lot of work when I get back but I don’t even care. We cleaned the house completely this weekend so it will be nice when we get back. I also did grocery shopping for the next 3 days since we will be eating out the whole time in Vegas. I just really hope that Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday don’t go super slow!

Jack had his first training class on Saturday. We will see how this works. He is just a spaz. I hope it gives us some good advise on how to train him. Pets Mart was so busy on Saturday it was hard to keep him from misbehaving. He barked at a lot of the dogs. There was adoptions and this annoying family that kept going in and out and distracting him. He does good at home though. He has been more behaved lately. It will just take time. He is only 5 months old.

Oh yeah, yay Vegas!!!

Now don’t get jealous, but this is my schedule for the next couple weeks. I have 2 days left this week, two days off, 3 days on, 5 days off, 4 days on, and 2 days off. I cannot wait to spend 4 days in Vegas and have the day after off. I am really excited to not have to worry about work, the dogs, or cleaning. I will have about $2000 dollars to spend there if I want as well. I will not need near that much, but it’s nice to be able to do what I want and not worry about budgets on my vacation. We are flying in at 4:30 PM on the 19th, staying at the Planet Hollywood hotel for 3 nights and then flying back home at 11:50 PM on the 22nd. We didn’t think about what we would do with the dogs. My mom said if we boarded Jack she and Jason would come watch Cody off and on. I had a great idea to ask Natalie though. That way we don’t have to board one of the dogs and they will get plenty of play/people time. I would much rather pay her to watch them both. She said only $15 a day which comes out to $60 for the whole 4 days, but that’s not enough. I will probably pay her about $150 since she will be staying at our house for 4 days and taking care of them.

Work has still been busy but not as stressful. We are switching to Pos instead of check requests and they are a lot quicker to do. There are a lot more of them though. I am off 100% audit so we get things done a lot quicker. I still feel very busy though because school is keeping me busy too.

I had my annual eye exam and I had to get a stronger prescription. I am really getting old. I still don’t have to wear them all the time at least.

Other then that not much going on. Just anxiously awaiting Vegas!!!

I have become a lot less stressed lately. We are still busy at work and I started school, but I am off 100% audit and am getting the routine down. The dogs have become a lot less of a handful. Jack hasn’t peed in the house in well over a week. I can even trust him to be in both rooms and I do not have to watch him every waking moment. He wears his tags and as long as I hear them jingle, I know they are playing and he’s not in trouble. He doesn’t really find stuff to chew because we have been watching him and Cody keeps him busy. Now that he has shots and I will be getting money I am going to enter him in a puppy training course. He tries to be too dominant and I would like to know how to train him well. I also want to get him socialized.
Jayson and I are planning on taking a vacation. We haven’t completely decided yet. Cali or Vegas. I would like to go to Cali and 6 flags, but I want to stay at a nice hotel with an ocean view. There aren’t many by 6 flags. I want to stay at the Dana again, but I don’t know if I want to go to Sea World again. I don’t know about Vegas cuz that is usually a place you want to go with a group and not just as a couple. We’ll have to see, but I want to go soon. I get $2000.00 back in taxes and so that is what I am planning on using it for. I also want to get more clothes and get everything checked on my car.
Other then that nothing much really going on. My anniversary is in a week. Jayson and I have been together for 6 years. We are probably going to go to Ichi Ban. Sounds good right now! So that’s really it.

A lot has been going on. I have been very busy and it is making me super stressed out. We have gotten more work and have become micromanaged because someone made a huge mistake. Then I go home and the dogs are a handful! Jayson has been home sick so it has been helpful.
Marie and I went to the bridal show last weekend. I got a few ideas, but it’s just people trying to get your business. You really wouldn’t be able to do much there because it is so busy. I went over some of the stuff I got and some of them are so expensive! My mom and I were talking about ways to save money. They do have a thing where you can do a registry for a down payment on your house. That is what I wanted to do, but I didn’t want to say “just give us money.”
Jayson had his last chiropractor appointment. Now it goes to the lawyers. I hope they can finish it quick and he can get a lot of money. We can really use it.
Jack is doing better. He has been sitting at the door to go out now. He went two days without peeing in the house. He sits at the door when he just wants to go out and play. We take him out anyway so he doesn’t stop letting us know when he wants to go out. Lately we have been blocking off the back so if he does pee it’s on the tile.
I had to get surgery on my toe again yesterday. I went in thinking that they were just going to give me antibiotics. He said that he wanted to numb it and make the cut line a little bit straighter and just cut out the little extra that was in back. Sure enough there was a little bit of what he said was the nail matrix. He only cut a little piece out so it doesn’t hurt really. I hope this is the last of it. So that’s it. That is what is going on right now. Just decided to list it out.

I absolutely despise the new business unit I switched to!!! They moved me this morning. I now sit by 3 of the most annoying people. This morning they were talking about an audit we got and I had mistakes on it so we had to do a 100% audit of that day. I told my team lead that I was taught the correct way I just made a mistake. I would bet that it was one of the first days I was processing. The team lead comes over and asks the lady that trained me if she trained me correctly on this one problem. When she says yes then my team lead says “oh well she didn’t get it.” It’s not that I didn’t get it. There are a gazillion things to remember and a gazillion things that can make the process different for the whole check request. Not to mention that the girls training me have had to look over my work and approve it before I complete it. Why aren’t they getting blamed for not looking at everything or letting that go through. We went over some stuff generally and I can’t be expected to have remembered everything the first time. That is why there were people auditing my work. There is just too much stuff to remember and too many ways to do things. I didn’t want to come to this business unit. I was fine where I was. I don’t want to hate my job. I won’t be staying all that long since I am in school, but 2 years is too long to hate my job. If it keeps up this way I will just talk to my team lead and see what I can do.

Jayson finally got his check for his car. We went this weekend and he got a 2006 dark silver Infiniti G35 coupe. It only had 35k miles on it and it is in excellent condition. We think the previous owner had a bra on it because the front of the car is perfect. They kept very good care of it. This is the first big, long contract purchase that Jayson and I have done together. My credit is up to 680 now so they were going to put the car fully in my name, but I don’t make enough. I could only get approved for 16k which was 4k short of the price of the car. They added Jayson to the contract for his pay, but that made the APR go up. His credit score went way down for some reason. He had a dispute on there so he got that cleared up. We have to pay a Quest bill from a long time ago. I don’t know why we didn’t pay it in the first place but we will take care of it. His credit should then go up. We plan on buying a house when our lease is up in 2010. He said by that time we should be married so our incomes will be together so we shouldn’t have a problem. His credit will go back up too. Mine will go up and he should catch up to me.

The dogs are getting better. Well Cody is always good for the most part so I should say Jack is getting better. Although Cody did bite Jack too hard when he pinned him down when they were playing. They are getting along better now. They are playing instead of fighting. Jack only peed in the house once yesterday and the day before. At least last night he peed on the tile. Both nights was when I was making dinner. I am not able to watch him as closely so he thinks it’s his chance. Tonight when I make dinner maybe I will put him in his kennel so he can’t pee. I know that he’s just a puppy, but I sure hope that he starts behaving. He doesn’t take to Cody’s signs when he’s annoyed with him. I read that we need to allow Cody to bear his teeth and growl when Jack is trying to take his food or spot since Cody is the dominant dog. Jack likes to patronize him though. When Cody is eating he goes and pushes him out of the way. He was taking Cody’s bone from him, but he is noticing that he is not supposed to do that. So, he waits until Cody leaves it and then goes to take it. What a dog! I just hope he will learn. I am thinking that I will probably enroll us in a puppy training course once he is up to date on his shots. I think he’ll be fine. He is only 3 months right now.

I’m sick of this business unit. UTC is closed for two weeks so there are days we don’t have much to do. They have been making us stay late to work on projects they had to come up with because it’s the end of the year. I know they are important, but not to where we should have to stay late. I don’t think anyone gets sent home early here. I should have called in today. I requested Friday off. Jayson has it off. I would like to get some things done and I could use a 4 day weekend. Our house is a disaster area and we need to get it cleaned up.
We finally got a new puppy on Sunday. We saw him on Saturday and went back to get him. We said we didn’t want a Pitbull and we got him even though they said he was. But as per usual of the AZ Humane Society they picked the wrong bread. I am 99.99% positive he is an American Bulldog: very possibly full blood. He is 3 months old and already 21 lbs. He has huge paws and the biggest ears. Let me tell you he is a handful. We knew he would be, but Cody is being a handful too and we didn’t know he would be. He is just trying to keep what is his. We have been curbing his bad behavior tendensies. He has been the only dog for 5 and a half years so he is not used to sharing his toys, space, mom, and dad. He does a “pack leader nip” when he thinks Jack is doing something wrong. We have been stopping him before he gets to that level. If he growles or shows his teeth we do the fingers to the neck like Caesar and if he nips we push him down into a laying position and let Jack continue as long as it’s an ok behavior. If he does that around food we push him down and take away the food. Jack has been posesive over his bone so we had to push him down and take it away. I know they will be fine. Jack just needs to learn the rules of the house and they need to get used to each other.

I have to vent about these two terrible drivers I encountered on the way home from work. Both endagering their child's lives. The first one I was going south on the 101 where there is 3 lanes. I started in the middle lane and there was a super slow car. I moved to the left lane and when I was almost all the way in that lane an SUV behind the slow car cut me off to move over as well. I didn't do anything, I just slowed down so they could get through. This lady starts slamming on her breaks and going as fast as the car I thought she was just trying to pass. I slow down even more and move over to the very first lane to pass the slow car. As I am moving back into the second lane this lady speeds up and starts trying to get over. She ends up slowing down to get behind me or she would have hit me. After I go back to the third lane and "take off" she slows down to her normal speed. It seemed to me she was trying to start road rage all while she had her kids in the car. She doesn't know me. I could very well be crazy and pull out a gun and shoot her or cause an accident with her.
Another one is shorter. I was on the 202 and I was going a little less then 75. Everyone is going about the same speed, but there are not too many people traveling with me. This lady comes up to the part of the freeway where I was and then passes me. In front of me there were quite a few cars and she starts swerving in and out of them to maintain her speed of about 85+. This lady had 3 kids in the car. Do people really need to be an ass that bad that they endanger their child's lives? It's so annoying!

I haven’t written in so long I forgot what news I had given/not given. We asked the landlord if we could get another dog and she said that we could. We will probably wait until the beginning of the year or until we get back from vacation. Maybe I will get a cute little puppy for Christmas, you never know.
Jayson’s back is doing better. The chiropractor said he has “back-lash” and it should go away. He started by going 3 times a week and is moving down to 2 times this week. He hasn’t gotten drugs since he first went to the hospital. That is just too much pain to deal with. I would at least get some for at night to sleep better. His siatic nerve is pinched so I know just how he’s feeling. Hopefully he will be up to 100% in no time and he will get a big settlement. We want to go on vacation and get new furniture. That will certainly help. Most of all we are hoping to get the check for his car so he can buy a new one. We found the same GLI that is only one year old and with the money he has left from what he owes on his car he will have $3000 down and he will only have $17000 for the loan of the car. Also he can put it in his own name. It will boost his credit some. Some good things will come of this. The best thing is that he is walking, talking and most of all still alive!

I haven’t been keeping up with livejournal as much as I had hoped. The semester is finally over. I am positive I got a super high A in math, and I think I got a low B or high C on drafting. It all depends if she gave me all the points available for my project. It was so hard and half of our grade. I e-mailed the program director and she said that I could substitute the drafting class I’m in for the one I am supposed to have for my degree. I am glad to not have to take it again. The schedules are not working for me in the spring semester though. I may have to take 4 classes one semester or some summer school if I can. We’ll see.
My new job is going ok. There is so much to remember! Multiple one little things can change how you process the whole thing. I haven’t made any mistakes for the last two days so I am getting it. I know that something weird will come along and I will make a mistake. I just hope it’s not a huge one. Everyone seems to be really stressed over here. I hope I do not become the same way. It helps that I know the system, but they still have to show me everything to enter.
Jayson and I have been very Christmasy this year. We bought a bunch of lights and put them up outside. We also bought all new decorations for the tree. Even though we are not having Christmas at our house, we ended up spending $80 just on the tree. With the decorations and presents I got it will turn out to be an expensive Christmas this year. At least we won’t have to buy the decorations again for a long time. We can just substitute when we need to. I will be updating my Myspace with pics pretty soon.

This weekend was Jayson’s birthday. It was pretty crappy though. On Friday we planned to go to The Detour, eat dinner and hang out. Jayson calls me a short time later and says he has bad news and that he was in an accident. He tells me that he was t-boned on the freeway, but really can’t tell me much else. I wait a little while and he calls me to bring some stuff for him and come pick him up. As I was driving up I could tell it was pretty bad. His car was off to the side and it was facing the wrong way. So I find out that there was an accident where a car rolled over. There was a guy on the left side of the freeway that was too busy looking at the accident to slow down. He slams on his breaks and jerks his wheel to the right. He hit Jayson on the right side of the freeway and continued to hit a Jaguar. So Jayson’s car spun around and the cops pushed his car off to the side when his car wouldn’t start. All of the side airbags deployed and the tires were bent in so the car will probably be totaled. Jayson was sad cuz he is almost done paying off the car and he just got a new rim and tires. We’ll see what happens because we may contact an accident attorney that we got from the registration lady at the hospital. We went to the hospital just to get him checked out. He got some pain meds but his back seems to be getting better. We went to look at cars, but I hate doing the car shopping thing. It is a major pain because once he got his Jetta paid off he was going to keep it paid off. Blah, dumb rubber neckers!

So I went to my appointment yesterday and he was able to do the procedure right away. It didn’t hurt as much as I remember. He did stuff that would have hurt so much more if I was younger. I am happy to have it done though. I do have to go back next week on Monday to check on it. My nail didn’t grow back from the previous acid treatment, I just cut it bad. It is hard to walk. The one time it’s bad to have all heals. I am wearing flip-flops, but it’s hard because you use your toes and mainly your big toe to keep the shoes on your feet. It will heal quickly though and I should be walking 100% in no time.

I got an e-mail from our landlord and she said that it would be cool for us to stay another year. I am hoping that we can get another dog now, but we’ll see. She allows 2 pets, but Jayson is worried that other places don’t allow 2 dogs and we should wait until we get our own place. What I am thinking is we will be buying a house after the next year lease and this landlord allows 2 pets so I really hope that Jayson will let us get another dog. Plus if for some reason we don’t buy a house we can just tell the person about one dog. When you live in a house instead of apartment, it’s pretty easy. We shall see.